via NY Post
PAULA Abdul is hitting the stage for a live perform ance on “American Idol” tomorrow night.
She’ll leave the judging to others to sing “I’m Just Here for the Music” — the first single off an album due out in the fall.
For the first time, Abdul reveals how hard it was for her to detox from a 12-year-long painkiller addiction.
“I could have killed myself,” she tells this month’s issue of Ladies’ Home Journal.
The withdrawal was “the worst thing. I was freezing cold, then sweating hot, then chattering and in so much pain. It was excruciating. But at my very core, I did not like existing the way I had been.”
Although Abdul claims that she never filmed an episode of “Idol” while under the influence — and vehemently denied any illegal drug use in the past — she did spend at least part of the last decade relying on painkillers and Chinese medicine to quietly combat her injury-induced chronic debilitating pain, she says.
Years of cheerleading, dancing injuries and two crashes — a 1992 car crash and a 1993 plane crash that required 15 spinal surgeries — contributed to a diagnosis of reflex sympathetic dystrophy syndrome in 2005. The illness left her with disabling pain, chattering teeth and shingles-like lesions.
To relieve the symptoms, Abdul wore a patch that delivered a pain medication that she claims was 80 times more potent than morphine. She also sometimes took a muscle relaxer, she said.
But that’s all ancient history. Last Thanksgiving, Abdul gave up the meds for good during a stay at Calsbad, Calif.’s La Costa Resort and Spa.
Now, she’s in shape and gearing up to to relaunch her music career.